II Timothy- Emotional

Heyyyy Divas!!!


Yesterday I was in Church, and the Passage was given from Second Timothy Chapter 4 Starting at Verse 7.
The Pastor read, I have fought a good fight, I have finished my course, I have kept the faith. When this was read, I cried in my husband's arms. It was the last thing that my Uncle JB said to me before he slipped into his coma, and eventually died.

"Niece he said, I have fought a good fight, I have finished my course, I have kept the faith, I was built for this."  After I cried, I smiled, because it doesn't matter what we are going through, with life's ups and downs. We are built for it! I always thought, why do I always have to struggle, why isn't things just handed to me like other folks, but I think that I have to fight hard, its part of my testimony. Actually in theory, nothing is expected to come easy to a child of God! I think I have learned that.

Brighter days are coming, we just have to remain faithful. Things are never as bad as it seems. My uncle fought a tough battle, and he is probably the strongest man I would ever know, but he told us, Don't worry about me, I was built for this. I am a soldier in the Army for God. (He actually was in the Army, so he used soldier quite a bit.)

Don't worry he says, anyone that knows me, is what I do.. I am a worrier.. I am a prayer, but I worry so much, and thinking back, I always have. And even through the mist of the tears, the worries, the prayers, God ALWAYS makes a way for me!

I wanted to share why, on this Monday morning, I am not grumpy, but smiling with a tear, its funny how moments in our lives becomes linked to a person, a place or a thing. Sometimes I believe its down right magical!

Welp Divas, until next time TWO SNAPS~~


My Uncle!! May He Rest In Peace!

Will you be my Valentine??

Hey Divas!!!!

This week love is in the air. How lovely!!

I wanted this Valentine's Day to be special since its my First One Married to a Man that holds my heart. Of course I had to stress this point to my Hubby. I'm anxious to see what surprise will be waiting for me. I am the hopeless romantic type.

But... I was watching TV yesterday, and someone can't remember who, said "Yeah, you can tell you are in LOVE, you gain a Whole LOT of Weight." So... I said to myself, Hmmm, that could have a good point.
My Husband and I relationship went into ninth gear when he moved in about 4 years ago. And after our wedding, I gained MAD WEIGHT, not to mention the stress level, and now I am at the highest I have been in about 4 years. : (

Lately, I started something new. I started the new Revolutionary Shred Diet from Dr. Ian Smith. And so far..... I have lost 6.5 Lbs in the first week. I am eating a lot more than I ever have. We eat about every 2-3 hours and have a low calorie intake. I didn't think, I would like it but I actually am, loving it. So.. I decided to grab me another sex lingerie, of course Red, for this Thursday just to top off our very special holiday.

Do you Divas have any plans for Valentine's Day???

Until next time... ~~ Two Snaps

It's Been A Minute! I Missed U!!

Heyyy Divas!!!!

Please don't kill me, its been a long time.... I missed ya!!

Life is unbelievably crazy, a straight up emotional roll coaster.

I have been doing A LOT of declaring lately. Last Year I would say things like, I am not going to make excuses, I'm fat. Then I would gain another pound. I would say that I am sad, and almost feel depressed, but LATELY, I have been saying, I may not be the Ideal Size I want to be I AM going to get there. I may not be content with the way that things are happening at the moment, but I am Faithful in God's word.

Through my declaration moments, I have been feeling a bit uplifted, and I acquired a lot more strength. It feels like I can conquer anything (well we all know that I always feel like that, lol... but really I have my moments.)

I don't intend in being away from you this long anymore. I love the outlet we have. The forum we built, and the sisterhood we formed. So leave comments or follow the blog and we will follow back.

Until next week, yes I said next week, try some declares, and put it in the atmosphere!

Two Snaps~~

Getaways!! We all NEED them

Heyy Divas!!

Life sure has been crazy, huh?!

I tell ya if it is not one thing its another. We have weight issues, money issues, relationship issues, family drama, back biting wanna be girlfriends and lets not leave out the kids. Geeesh, I am tired and frazzled from naming all that stuff..  Key word in that sentence is stuff. I am learning to navigate through my own cloudiness of a brain to find Peace and Joy. I heard on Oprah that, she rather have joy than happiness any day. I am finding out that I agree with her totally.

I keep saying to myself I just want to be happy, I just want to be happy. But predetermined by who? God, says child you are living that should make you happy. Our Boss says, at least your working, that should make you happy. Our spouses or loved one says, I am home with you at all times that should make you happy. Our family says we haven't asked you for a favor or for a small loan in a while, that should make you happy. The scale says we haven't tipped our highest weight point yet, that should make you happy. But yet, we still aren't satisfied. I wonder is happiness and satisfaction connected. I see that happiness can be turned to sadness without warning and if you are satisfied, you can become highly pissed off at the drop of the hat, but if you have JOY, oh boy, can anyone take your JOY away?!

I have a long commute to work, and during that hour and some change drive, my mind escapes on its own getaway. I think my mind goes to some money making boot camp  because all I can think about is how can I make more money through having businesses. (Not in I am rich kinda way, but girl, you better come up with something to pay the mortgage kinda way!) I know one of my brilliant ideas will sky rocket, and one of my worries will be lifted, but through my mind craze session, I look up at the nice blue sky out peaks a small rainbow, and behold peace over flows me, as if I was on a beach with a nice drink sipping away.

I read something on Facebook today it says:

I said Ohhh, God is telling a sistah something. And believe me I am listening!

While our minds may escape to a lovely hideaway, our physical nature needs the same. I found this company online last week their are called Affordable Getaways and their on facebook at https://www.facebook.com/AffordableGetaways. They have reasonable destinations at great deals and promotions that you truly can't pass up! I just won a free 3 Days/ 2 Night stay in Hilton Head Island, SC and I am so excited, I need to GETAWAY again! 

I am learning Hard work pays off, dedication pays off, faith pays off, truth pays off, believing in our selves pays off, and knowing God pays off! I say we need to keep this blog in our memory bank, so when life seems unbearable, lets getaway! When the family is irking the mess out of us, lets getaway! When our spouse or partner works our nerves to the out most, lets grab our gal divas and lets getaway!

Do you have a favorite getaway spot or know a deal that you will like to share please leave a comment?

Until next time Divas-- Two Snaps!~~

A DIVAFIED HUSTLA$$ Are you one?

Heyyy My Divas!!!!

One thing I wanted to hit on seriously is every DIVA needs to have some sort of Hustle. Whether it is a good paying career, a nice or comfortable job, or a bangin' business, WE need to do have something substantial going on and let me explain why?

There are four ways people make money. The 1st way is being an employee. 80% of Americans eat, live and die in this category and that maybe OK for them but not for me. The 2nd way is a self-employed individual. These are doctors or lawyers, hairdressers, even though they can potentially make a great deal of money, they have to be there physically to make it. Meaning if they don't work, they don't get paid! The 3rd way is a business owner. These are people that own a business or a system that will run self sufficiently even when the owner is not present or involved. (I ENCOURAGE EVERY DIVA TO FIND A HOBBY, CRAFT, or BUSINESS THAT YOU CAN BE THE OWNER OF!) And the last way is an investor. Money works 24/7. It may not flow 24/7 through our pockets but it most certainly flows why not capitalize on it.

I own 3 businesses. I promote financial independence within our communities. I make sure our families and communities are properly protected, I help them to create a plan to become debt free, and I also teach about investments, retirements and really how money works visit my web site or message me for any additional questions http://www.primerica.com/pduson.

I have a jewelry line that I love tremendously! Its called Mo-La Dazzled. Visit https://www.facebook.com/MoLaDazzled or http://moladazzled.miiduu.com/ to preview any of the jewelry or to make a purchase.

I have an event planning business and I also work full time. I shared all this with you, because regardless of the election tomorrow, us as WOMEN need to empower, motivate, and educate our selves in being business owners and investors. We are smart, strong and money savvy, there is no reason why our net worth is less than man only because they are a tad bit more knowledgeable in investments than we are. I plan to change that. The average Africa American Household is net worth to be $4.995, but our counter parts are worth from $7,000 to $121,000. What is wrong with this scenario?? I plan to change that also. Having a licensed professional in every household is a start then a financial game plan is second. Again contact me to learn more about the game plan.

I encourage my Divas out there to make a plan, start a hustle, familiarize yourself with terms and the investment market and if you need my help, please REACH OUT!

I am declaring with my Divas out there that I will work my hardest and my best to become financially set, self sufficient and a true DIVAFIED HUSTLA? How about u??

I am thinking about upgrading to the true DIVA BOSS status. I work hard enough, I think I deserve it.

Which do you prefer?

Mirrors, Mirrors... Wasn't my Best Friend!

Hello Divas!!!! And Divaettes (Divas-In-Training),

I am so sorry I have missed posting these past 2 weeks.     ~~I was on our HONEYMOON!!!!~~

Yayyy,  I was getting it in all kinds of ways (if you know what I mean). But Behold......... I had the nerve to but on a bathing suit, which I was excited about because my boobies looked so darn good in it. I put on the suit and turned to the mirror, and OHHH LAWWWD, I broke down in some tears, it was awful!

I couldn't believe I let myself gain this weight yet again, then all of these woulda coulda thoughts went through my mind. My husband came over to console me and that didn't work. All I kept thinking was it could be worse, it could be worse, I could of gained all the weight back that I lost.

See when I took a glimpse in the mirror, I saw an all too familiar person. A person that I swore I wouldn't be again. Heavy, stressed, burnt out, so critical, ungrateful and miserable. Life managed to be placed before ME, and that's a BIG NO NO!!!!

After a tear or two (ok, a whole pool of tears), I thanked the Lord that its not as bad as it could possibly be. I picked my head up and strike a pose in another mirror (LOL) and went on to have one of the greatest days of our vacation.
On our tour bus, my best friend who was unaware of my melt down, says "Do you know those mirrors that are in our cabin, is truly unflattering. I look HUGE!" (In her coca cola size 10 shape, that I could of strangled at that moment.) I looked back at my husband, my husband winked at me, and I was like ooohhh so it wasn't all me in that mirror this morning during my emotional burst of cries, someone else witnessed the same thing.

So I came to some conclusions:
Conclusion #1- NO cruise cabins should have full length mirrors especially when they know that all that damn food is around.
Conclusion #2- When we look into the mirror, our first reaction should be to smile not cry, but when I did I VOWED at the moment, when I returned home, to get back into the healthy groove that led to my first 100 pound weight loss and to love me Unconditionally, because no one else will ever love me like I do! ( I have lost 5 pounds so far.)
Conclusion #3- I view tears as prayers, and even though at that moment, I felt a little defeated, I think it was my own special moment with God, to know that what I was feeling was not who I truly am and what I promised I tend to keep.
It should always be God first, then yourself, then your family, businesses or work, then everything else. If I can't put God first, how will he put me first. If I don't love me I will I expect my husband to love me?

Now when I look into the mirror, I see my GLOW, I see BEAUTY, I see DETERMINATION, I see GRATEFULNESS, I see ME!

So Diva's I ask you, what do you see when you look into the mirror? Also from a man's perspective and a solider's outlook please visit www.mnmlostsoldier.com to order a great book The Man in the Mirror: Lost Soldier.

My Hubby and I!!!

Great Book!!!

Fears??

Heyyyy Divas,

It's been a while. I truly apologize, its been over a month and mentally I have been all over the place and so has my weight.

I have not gained or lost any but my fear of not completing a goal or task for myself is unbearable.

As I sat and wrote this message for Afrodeezha, my fingers couldn't stop typing but I realized what I said is the truth, and I understand why I didn't met that 30lbs goal I sat for myself, because... simply put, I just wasn't ready. Please continue to read below.

Heyyyy Afrodeezha!!


Thank you for joining us.

I have been on such a high emotional roll coaster myself that I have been praying to get off of it and fast. With emotions high, we tend to eat things we are not suppose to. But wait here's the kicker we know we are not suppose to, so now we feel guilty and often times even cry.

I have learned that we are very critical human beings, when you tend to carry extra weight. We become so harder on ourselves than the size 2 chick standing in GAP trying on some jeans.

I believe before we can truly commit to a life style change of being healthy and thin, we first need to examine our emotional triggers. What makes us do what we do? Why do we feel the "need" to stray when we become bored or angry?

And Afrodeezha trust me, this part isn't easy. I am in this transition stage of my life, and I am re-examining everyone and everything. I am doing things for ME and not for anyone else. I am rediscovering this new person, and whether I have support or not, I know its something that needs to be done. If not..... I am on the road to gaining all 100 lbs I lost and my heart and soul WILL NOT be able to handle that.

I have an acronym for the word FAT- Its Feeling Absent Tremendously!!!

Please Listen to me, whether you are a size 6 or 26 you are BEAUTIFUL in your own right. We tend to become absent sometimes emotionally and spiritually and food takes it place (thats why we feel FAT or call ourselves FAT). So Hold your head high because someone didn't wake up this morning. Someone lost a leg, and can't workout at all. Or in memory of my Uncle that died of stomach cancer, whom couldn't eat a single thing for at least 2 years. So imagine that fried chicken we love so much, imagine smelling it but not able to eat it that was him. (R.I.P. Uncle JB. We love U!) Basically there are people that are a lot worst off then we are. We hold, Faith, strength, ambition, determination, and the WILL to live our lives as it is meant to be.

We may not be where we want to be yet for our ideal size and weight, but we have the WILL to make it happen. We just have to put in the work; mentally, physically, spiritually and emotionally. Once these paths are align our journey and quest will fall into place. TRUST ME! You are not ALONE!


~~Two Snaps~~