Heyyy My Fabulous Divas out there,
Sorry to be gone from you for so long, but a particular holiday never seem to go right........
I have this preconceived notion about Labor Day as always being a bummer on top of all bummer holidays. Labor Day was the time that I had to catch the bus every summer back to Philly, from spending months with my Mom, and my Little Sister. (Sad times) In 1998 my boyfriend at the time, which was the love of my 16 year old life died during a shoot out in High Point, NC. Then in 2004, another boyfriend at the time, died from being maliciously poisoned at the hand of a so called friend. And yesterday 2 people died. One of the younger women that is in our neighborhood, who also is my younger cousin, and actor Michael Clarke Duncan.
So imagine the thought of lost, abandonment and despair every year at the same time. (It sucks!)
It was so eerie yesterday, all I did was watch Long Island Medium on TLC, and tell my hubby repeatedly, how I wanted to have a reading. I really really do though, because there are some folks I would love to hear from that is on the other side. It seemed like death lingered all day until about 6 in the evening. All I could do was somber, sob, and pray. I prayed so hard, I had tears in my eyes. But I am so proud of me though, as sad as I was, I did not indulge in any unnecessary desire to cheat and eat nothing I am truly not suppose to have. (Yayyy me!!!) In fact I lost 4 lbs last week!!! ~~
I remember talking to my hubby, and listening to his story of how he hated Holidays, especially Christmas. Christmas for him, was nothing but arguments and fights and for me it was the complete opposite. Its funny how someone has a connection to a particular holiday and even though some memories are wonderful, we seem to hold on to the ones that are hurtful and overall hold a negative impression in our minds and sometimes our hearts.
Do you find yourself doing this; once this "one" particular holiday rolls around, nothing but sadness overcomes you and you refuse to be anything close to joyous?
I need to find a way to revert this plaque that I have on this particular holiday. I would like to have any Holiday no matter of what tragedies and losses, I endured to be one of happiness and joy. I would like to beam of this bright glow all day, like I do any other day, instead of sob and weep.
I declare Like Independence day, (lol!) I declare, that from this day forth I will have fun and enjoy Labor day as a true relaxing, outgoing, a lot of shopping deals day, that it truly is!!
Do you have an declarations over any holidays?? I would love to hear them....
I declare Valentine's Day as my favorite non-holiday, its nothing like receiving flowers, card, and my favorite Reese's heart candy from a special admirer. That has always been my favorite holiday, if it is considered one! I like all the Mickey and Minnie in love stuff that I always receive because, I do have an OBSESSION with Mickey Mouse! It really is a day about loving the one your with or yourself, even though I am single now...I always have someone around that time of year!
ReplyDeleteTruthfully, Thanksgiving is a favorite holiday. It does give you the sense of family and friends, great food, and lots of laughter and joy in the air. I like visiting different people on Thanksgiving, its fun to see how other celebrate with their families. I also like all the sweets that I can eat and then feel guilty for eating them later...I absolutely love Pecan Pie, I can't wait for it this year!
Now,if I could only get my birthday as a NATIONAL HOLIDAY...that would really put a smile on my face! :)
A Forever Fan,
NY the Diva
Hey NY the DIVA!!!
ReplyDeleteYou are soo brave! I use to cringe at the thought of Valentine's Day when I was single.. I was thought it shouldn't be a day where someone should tell me that they love me or get me something really nice, that should be everyday! (Truth be told, that was my way of not feeling like a loser because I didn't have a Valentine) Lol..
I love Mickey Mouse too, but of course I am a Spongebob kinda girl.. Lol..
My favorite Holiday is Christmas, just like Thanksgiving is to you, Christmas is to me.. My Aunt in Love, and Sister in Love makes a mean Pecan Pie, its my Hubby's favorite too.. I will freeze you a piece and send it to you if you would like.. Oh no.. Wait a minute, I am going to be in Charlotte this Thanksgiving.. I almost forgot.
I am learning to focus more on holidays that hold a special happy meaning instead of dwelling on the ones that makes me miserable. I think it helps my spirit and my soul, a whole lot more. ~~
Thanks for the support always!
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