I remembering praying last night asking God "why is weight loss such a struggle for me?" I have been overweight since I was in high school (the birth control shot depo provera was not my friend), and it seemed to never get better.
I lost 100 lbs! But I don't believe that I lost that 100 lbs. for me, it was for the appearance of me, not to be healthy. I worked out tirelessly everyday, I mean evverrryday and ate of course no carbs for it seemed like forever. Once a month, I would do weight watchers to switch things up, but immediately return to no carbs for another 4 weeks. Weight was dropping off, but it seemed more like a crash diet then a lifestyle change. So knowing that, I gained 40 of it back (sad face), but since the new discovery I have been steady losing then gaining but nothing tremendous, just staying leveled. I tried so hard for our wedding May 19, 2012 to lose another 30 lbs (yes indeedy, plus size and all, I'm happily married!), but I'm so hard on myself when I don't make a goal I set, I start to feel like a failure and tend to eat.
This is sad, because as I am writing this, all I can think about is getting a double cheeseburger from McDonald's with no pickles, even though I had one of my quick salads for lunch. Weight loss is such a sore spot for me, that it makes me emotionally unavailable sometimes. I mainly do a low carb diet, with a great deal of protein meats, minus pork and beef (hint this craving for a freakin' double cheeseburger). Now if I would to go and get this double cheeseburger, I would break down and cry my whole hour drive home and hide the evidence so no one could see it because I am embarrassed now. I truly do think it's a mind thing just like a drug. Food is one of the things that makes me happy and sometimes I wonder if that food is filling a spot that seems to be empty at that particular time. I am a sucker for good food and good service heck I'm a foodie. But I am learning to eat a lot healthier and channel these desires, while being a whole lot more active.
I started a new workout "Zumba", and its a great change from just the treadmill and weight training, if anyone has ever tried it is wonderful! I noticed that emotions trigger my desire to cheat on my quest to healthy living. I noticed that if I am bored, I want to snack and eat, if my highly pissed, I mean real mad, I want to eat and snack, if I am happy, I am cool good to go no cheating is present. After being aware of my emotional triggers, having a great support system, being more active, and watching my food intake, I believe I am on the right path to weight loss success. ~~ (two snaps)~~
Quick alternative:
Instead of the McDonald's Double Cheeseburger for $1.29 (that I so craved)
Try my Quick Salad for the same price:
Lettuce
Roma Tomatoes
Garlic Cheese Croutons ($1.00 for a box at Dollar Tree My all time favorite store)
Sprinkle of Parmesan Cheese
Ground Black Pepper
A little Caesar Dressing
... And there you have it a nice quick hit the spot salad, that will stretch the dollar and a whole lot healthier for you all at the same time.
I am learning different ways and receipes to keep healthy living possible for me, and I will continue to share.
I will keep you posted through my weight loss journey! In the mean while, please feel free to comment on your own personal struggles, journeys, and new tricks during your weight loss transformation.
Well first, let me thank you for having a wonderful place to discuss the world being thick and lovely! It's a very relaxing blog and I feel I can express myself without being judged.
ReplyDeleteWeight-loss for me is extremely hard as well! I can't seem to become motivated until I had a discussion with my friends and family. Everyone knows that I have always been a confident woman who embraces her curves, but recently I feel FAT! I have really started to eat more now, since recently I have had some bad luck come into my life. I have strong faith that everything will improve and get better for me, but I have started to become an emotional eater too. (I completely understand your McDonald's cravings...I want a double cheeseburger with no pickles and a medium vanilla milkshake! They are always thick like me! LOL!)
I recently bought a sauna suit to go walking in around the local park and I feel like a big baked potato! One thing I hate to do is sweat and I know thats how weight comes off but I am hate doing it! I was getting used to it but I slacked off for a couple of weeks to try another crash diet. When will I realize they actually do more harm than good for my body, I will never learn! I just want this weight off at any cost!
Well I hope that both of us will have some luck with this weight-loss plan and I will let you know about the progress as well.
Thanks for listening,
NY the DIVA
Heyyyy NY the DIVA!!!!!
ReplyDeleteI would like to first thank you so much for taking the time to read and comment on the blog, that means so much to me!!
I tell ya babe, this weight is tremendously tied in emotionally with our mind and spirit. If I am stressed only about money not about relationship (men) I tend to cheat a whole lot more. If I am angry or mad not stressed or worried, man, I work out like I have a vengeance or some sort of vendetta one someone or something. I think once we recognize our triggers it will be easier for us to maintain our compulsion to stray...
But NY the DIVA, we have the best thing for a plus size woman, a pretty face and a whole lot of CONFIDENCE! That goes a long way for sure.
We will conquer this beast together, mean while we will continue to love us when no one else will. We will love us when the world says we are too big and not thin enough. We will love us when the mirror isn't being so forgiving or when the scale is being mean. We will hold our heads high and strut our BAD SELVES in our heels down the street and in our cars because we will get to the point where we want to be, when the time is right!
Take care Ms. Diva, I hope to hear from you again!
~~ (Two Snaps)
Add to the high emotions of every day things, kidney disease and a special diet not conducive to all the weight loss meals out there and you have me! I have actually had lap band surgery, lost 80 lbs and Medicare changed my coverage and my doctor is no longer eligible.
ReplyDeleteGuess who's gained back 30 lbs? I too used to have curvy girl confidence and now I just feel fat. I'm connecting with people who are going through similar things that I'm going through and others who inspire me because I'm TIRED of this cycle!